Would You Run Away?

Would You Run Away?
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Imagine sitting in an industrial freezer with your left ear pressing up against a block of ice.

Your whole body is frozen and the stench of unwashed bodies around you would make you vomit if your stomach had received food in the last 24 hours. But you haven’t eaten for many days and neither have you seen sunlight.

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The world was shocked recently when the UK news reported that 39 dead bodies were found inside a refrigerated lorry. Instantly, everyone had an opinion about why these refugees were stowing away. We know it was illegal and we know they must have been desperate, but how desperate? We will never know what drives people to take such dangerous risks and it’s easy to just write them off as plain stupid and then get on with our day.

Would You Run Away?
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But just like how a suicidal mind has become so tormented and warped that it would force a body under a high-speed train, throw it off a high building or swallow 70 tablets, these clandestine travellers weren’t thinking straight.

They thought about the calamities and atrocities they have already faced. They thought about how they could no longer bear watching their loved-ones suffer. Greedy liars sold them a story of hope in a new land. Not necessarily a tale of wealthy places, but a promise of safety, peace and prospects, where they could begin to re-build their lives.

Maybe, just maybe, those 39 dead asylum seekers had gone through a similar experience to the one below. (‘I thought I Knew Pain’ – excerpt from, ‘Why You Make God Smile’)

Yes, they were breaking the law, but that was most likely because somebody had already broken their hearts:

I thought I knew pain,

Until I saw them shoot my wife.

They grabbed her like a piece of meat,

And took away her life.

She fell to the ground,

They shouted, “Keep moving south!”

Her body bent in agony,

Dust flew into her mouth.

I jumped down to hold her,

Her body looked a wreck.

Her eyes had stopped moving,

Blood tricked down her neck.

I was hit in the stomach

With the butt of a gun.

They pulled me away,

I cried, “Look what you’ve done!”

They laughed as they went

And shot her once more,

They called me a dog,

And my beloved, a whore.

Enjoying their evil,

They were full of mirth,

Telling us all

We don’t belong on this earth.

Would You Run Away?

I looked at the solider

As she lay at his feet.

We used to play together

As kids, in the street.

We were once neighbours

Who looked out for each other.

We had him round for Christmas,

She nursed his sick mother.

I cannot believe

What I have become.

I stare into space,

My heart is so numb.


We’ll be across the border

In less than a while,

But all I can think of

Is my dear wife’s smile.

The victim of

An atrocious crime.

I couldn’t even hold her

For one last time.

A man pushed his way forwards

And came up to me.

He said, “See it like this,

Your wife is now free.

But my girl was abused

By five soldiers over there,

Now she’ll never have the children

She wanted to bear.

She walks two steps,

Then falls down in pain,

She cries day and night

That she’s going insane.”


I look at this family,

How will they cope?

I think of my wife –

I’ve lost all hope.

Before this war started,

I thought I knew pain,

Until I saw how people

Can be so inhumane.


If you enjoyed this excerpt and would like to read more from the same book, stay tuned, as I shall continue to add further sample chapters and snippets. However, if like me, you struggle with impatience, (I always hop onto Wikipedia to find out what’s going to happen in the next episodes of my favourite dramas!) then you can purchase the full book here: Why You Make God Smile (despite your faults and weaknesses)


Why You Make God Smile

Have a great day!






    • Thanks Kayla. I used to judge them and think they were foolish and selfish and maybe some are, but God helped me to see the other side. I guess in each situation in life, there are those who are making it bad for the ones who are genuine. I’ve seen news clips of refugees getting to the shoreline and just throwing their lifejackets back into the sea. It made me angry that they would disrespect our country like that as soon as they arrive. And of course there are many who sneak in and get lost in the system, causing violence and trouble. But I wanted to see the ‘other side’ with this post. Thanks for taking the time to read it. Bless you xx

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