Sad Season

The verses that tell us that we need to add works to faith have caused me to do some crazy, daring things and pray some ridiculous prayers. 

The story about Peter stepping out of the boat, together with John Ortberg’s book on the subject, has rendered me fearless and full of belief, hope and childish dreams.

Some efforts have lasted 21 years, another load, for 17 years. Other great attempts have lasted what seems a lifetime.

But it was evidently all in vain. (of course, that’s not true, but endure my misery for a little longer)

If there is one bible verse that I’m struggling to believe it is:

“You reap what you sow.”

I have no problem knowing that I will attract bad things from wrong choices and sin – it’s the rewards for faithfulness that’s an issue for me, whether it be investment into people’s lives, general ministry, making great effort with ‘friendships’ or working hard to do something beneficial. 

The conclusion is that I obviously don’t really know the difference between faith and foolishness. 

If this was somebody else’s blog post, I’d be in there like a shot, with encouraging words of hope. Therefore, I can conclude that another fault of mine is that I don’t practice what I preach.

So I give up. Hypocrisy, doubt, folly and self-pity are not attractive in anyone, therefore, I’ll free you from this negativity by taking a bow. 

It’s time to say goodbye.

6 comments

  1. I’m not sure what you meant by “it’s time to say good-bye”, but if you meant that you are giving up your blog, I encourage you to reconsider, unless the Lord has told you to say “good-bye”. Hopefully, I have misunderstood and we will be hearing again from you soon! God bless you!

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    • Thank you DeborahMarie. I did kinda mean that to myself, because I was reacting to my feelings and thinking of just ‘throwing the towel in’ on everything.

      But I think the Lord is showing me that where my problem lies is in the verses in Hosea chp.6. So I’ve been meditating on those, because I don’t want to do anything in my own strength.

      I’m particularly captured by Hosea 6:3 which says,

      “Oh, that we might know the Lord! Let us press on to know him. He will respond to us as surely as the arrival of dawn or the coming of rains in early spring.”

      Isn’t that lovely?

      Then, further down, it says,

      “I want you to know me more than I want burnt offerings.”

      This makes me think about blogging and other ministries God gives us that we can become so wrapped up in, that we put more importance on them rather than taking time to spend quality moments at His feet and really get to know him.

      That is why I was searching my heart for hidden sins and being honest with my fellow bloggers, because I think it’s important to be real.

      The other verse God is speaking to me about right now is the infamous, Proverbs 3:6, so I’m taking time out from all writing ministries in order to hear from Him properly.

      But I still want to read the blogs of others, so I’ll pop on here occasionally.

      I really appreciate your encouragement and may God bless you, ever so abundantly, for taking time out to cheer my spirit and plant a seed of hope in my heart. 💚

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      • You made some good points. Nothing can become more important to us than our relationship with Jesus. It is one that we must be vigilant to protect. God will honor your obedience. You will be missed by those of us who read your blog, but I believe in time we will hear from you again. God bless you, Sharon, as you seek the heart of the Father.

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      • God bless you also. I tried commenting on a few of your posts, but they are coming up as ‘comments closed’. Not sure my follow worked either. I may have to access it via a desktop pc. But it’s a great blog. Thanks also for your compliments about mine. 😍

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