The verses that tell us that we need to add works to faith have caused me to do some crazy, daring things and pray some ridiculous prayers.
The story about Peter stepping out of the boat, together with John Ortberg’s book on the subject, has rendered me fearless and full of belief, hope and childish dreams.
Some efforts have lasted 21 years, another load, for 17 years. Other great attempts have lasted what seems a lifetime.
But it was evidently all in vain. (of course, that’s not true, but endure my misery for a little longer)
If there is one bible verse that I’m struggling to believe it is:
“You reap what you sow.”
I have no problem knowing that I will attract bad things from wrong choices and sin – it’s the rewards for faithfulness that’s an issue for me, whether it be investment into people’s lives, general ministry, making great effort with ‘friendships’ or working hard to do something beneficial.
The conclusion is that I obviously don’t really know the difference between faith and foolishness.
If this was somebody else’s blog post, I’d be in there like a shot, with encouraging words of hope. Therefore, I can conclude that another fault of mine is that I don’t practice what I preach.
So I give up. Hypocrisy, doubt, folly and self-pity are not attractive in anyone, therefore, I’ll free you from this negativity by taking a bow.
It’s time to say goodbye.